I hope so....
'coz i am so stressed already....both physical and EMOTIONAL...hahaha..
well, but it's true...
hope the vacation will help me heal the wounds...and not make a new one....
know what??
i miss her but seeing her doesn't help much....seeing her makes me miss her more....'coz i know that she's not the same person i am looking for.....i know that i can't come to her just like how i come to her before....i know i can't talk to her freely without this awkward feeling that evolved just lately....i know i can't smile to her without thinking on the back of my head if she will ever dare look at me.....
i know how i miss her but what i don't know is how to NOT miss her....
i don't know how to dump this feeling....i don't know how to forget everything about her.....i don't know how to act normal when "normalcy" is not being with her....
i want to pretend as if it is normal for me not seeing her everyday or even once in a week...i want to pretend as if it is normal to pass each day without thinking of her....i want to pretend that every single day, without a slightest hint of her, is NORMAL....
but these are all pretensions.....and i am fully aware of it.....i know that there is nothing normal.....there's no normal day for me....no normal week for me....and no single moment for me that is NORMAL....
i want to go back to where i started.....i want to normalize everything......
and maybe without HER....
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Dahil ito kina Shari at Bea
Bakit ganun??
kahit alam ko na yun dati pa at siya mismo ang nagsabi sa akin, bakit hindi pa rin ako immune sa bawat detalye ng kuwento??
paulit-ulit ko pa ngang naririnig ang kuwentong iyon araw-araw mula sa kanya and same pain pa rin yung nararamdaman ko....
akala ko after some time masasanay din ako....mamamanhid na sa mga kuwentong iyon.......maninigas hanggang sa wala ng maramdaman sa tuwing maririnig ang mga kaliit-liitang detalye ng mga pangyayari....
pero hindi pala...
bumukal muli ang dating nakatagong sidhi ng damdamin...
hindi pa pala ako namanhid.....sobrang nanariwa pa ang damdaming iyon sa tuwing bumabalik sa aking gunita ang lahat ng mga alaala.....ng kanyang nakalipas....
nagpapantig ang tainga ko sa tuwing bubulong ang bawat salitang nagpapaalala sa akin ng lahat....mula sa pagkukuwento niya ng lahat na para bang wala akong pakiramdam....hanggang sa pagpupumilit ng aking mga kalamnan na itaas ang litid ng aking mga labi upang hindi niya maramdaman ang lungkot na ipinahihiwatig ng aking mga labing kanina pa nagpupumiglas na bumagsak......ang panginginig nito sa pagtatangkang ipakita sa kanya ang nakatangong lungkot na aking nadarama...hanggang sa aking pag-uwi at pagbabasura ng lahat ng istoryang maluwag niyang ibinahagi sa akin ngunit ayokong tanggapin....ayokong maalala ang lahat ng iyon...ang lahat-lahat ng patungkol sa "kanya"....si "kanya" na palagi niyang naaalala.....
at uuwi na parang walang nangyari....pag-uwi na parang tumugil ang mundo sa mga oras na kasama ko siya at wala akong nagawa....wala kaming ginawa maski magkuwentuhan o anuman.....kailangang paniwalain ko ang sarili kong wala akong nalaman....na wala akong narinig....na wala akong naramdaman nung mga panahong iyon.....
sana nga mapaniwala ko ang sarili ko ngayong bumalik ang ma basurang pinilit kong layuan at kalimutan.....
ngayon pa?? na alam kong pabalik na si "kanya"?? sariwa pa ang lahat at sa tingin ko mananatili pa ring sariwa sa mahabang panahon.....
kahit alam ko na yun dati pa at siya mismo ang nagsabi sa akin, bakit hindi pa rin ako immune sa bawat detalye ng kuwento??
paulit-ulit ko pa ngang naririnig ang kuwentong iyon araw-araw mula sa kanya and same pain pa rin yung nararamdaman ko....
akala ko after some time masasanay din ako....mamamanhid na sa mga kuwentong iyon.......maninigas hanggang sa wala ng maramdaman sa tuwing maririnig ang mga kaliit-liitang detalye ng mga pangyayari....
pero hindi pala...
bumukal muli ang dating nakatagong sidhi ng damdamin...
hindi pa pala ako namanhid.....sobrang nanariwa pa ang damdaming iyon sa tuwing bumabalik sa aking gunita ang lahat ng mga alaala.....ng kanyang nakalipas....
nagpapantig ang tainga ko sa tuwing bubulong ang bawat salitang nagpapaalala sa akin ng lahat....mula sa pagkukuwento niya ng lahat na para bang wala akong pakiramdam....hanggang sa pagpupumilit ng aking mga kalamnan na itaas ang litid ng aking mga labi upang hindi niya maramdaman ang lungkot na ipinahihiwatig ng aking mga labing kanina pa nagpupumiglas na bumagsak......ang panginginig nito sa pagtatangkang ipakita sa kanya ang nakatangong lungkot na aking nadarama...hanggang sa aking pag-uwi at pagbabasura ng lahat ng istoryang maluwag niyang ibinahagi sa akin ngunit ayokong tanggapin....ayokong maalala ang lahat ng iyon...ang lahat-lahat ng patungkol sa "kanya"....si "kanya" na palagi niyang naaalala.....
at uuwi na parang walang nangyari....pag-uwi na parang tumugil ang mundo sa mga oras na kasama ko siya at wala akong nagawa....wala kaming ginawa maski magkuwentuhan o anuman.....kailangang paniwalain ko ang sarili kong wala akong nalaman....na wala akong narinig....na wala akong naramdaman nung mga panahong iyon.....
sana nga mapaniwala ko ang sarili ko ngayong bumalik ang ma basurang pinilit kong layuan at kalimutan.....
ngayon pa?? na alam kong pabalik na si "kanya"?? sariwa pa ang lahat at sa tingin ko mananatili pa ring sariwa sa mahabang panahon.....
I act 14 years old, how old do you act?
*I just want to know how old do i act...'coz a lot of people thinks i am immature...well, it sounds like they have a point now...*
Put an X in all that apply and then add up to see how old you act!
[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[ ] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics is exciting.
TOTAL: 4
[x] You show up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket.
[x] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.
TOTAL: 4
[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[ ] You can count to 10 in another language.
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it.
[ ] You can mow the lawn.
[x] You study when you have to.
[ ] You have hand washed a car before.
TOTAL: 2
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is shawarma.
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick..
TOTAL: 3
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of the country.
[ ] You make your own bed.
TOTAL: 1
REPOST AS: I act __ years old, how old do you act?
Put an X in all that apply and then add up to see how old you act!
[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[ ] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics is exciting.
TOTAL: 4
[x] You show up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket.
[x] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.
TOTAL: 4
[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[ ] You can count to 10 in another language.
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it.
[ ] You can mow the lawn.
[x] You study when you have to.
[ ] You have hand washed a car before.
TOTAL: 2
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is shawarma.
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick..
TOTAL: 3
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of the country.
[ ] You make your own bed.
TOTAL: 1
REPOST AS: I act __ years old, how old do you act?
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Ang labo!!
Ang labo niya...sobrang labo niya..
hindi ko alam...pero basta naaasar ako...
akala ko ba tulad pa rin ng dati...walang magbabago...walang maiilang...walang lalayo...
(sabi niya hindi naman daw....pero iba yung feeling ko....i know that there's a big change....i might not know her a lot but i know how she dealt with me before...and comparing it with how she deals with me now, i can really say na may nagbago....)
pero hindi pala...gaya ng inaasahan ko....eto ngayon!!!
kaya nga ako hesitant nung una na sabihin sa kanya eh...kaya nga as much as possible ayokong malaman niya....hangga't maaari itinatago ko sa kanya..
pero ang kulit ko kasi....bakit ko ba kasi sinabi?? kahit na nalaman kong alam na rin niya before ko pa sabihin, wala pa ring pagkakaiba yun....
mas maganda nga sanang hindi ko na lang sinabi kasi at least walang confirmation...wala siyang proof na "ano" ko nga siya...
what am i expecting ba kasi when I told her about dun?? am i expecting na matutuwa siya?? or if not, na everything will be okay and will go back to their proper places and order??......adik nga ako kung ganun....'coz I know that in every little thing we did, nothing will be the same as before....a lot will change....and despite that, ginawa ko pa rin yun!!!
HAY!! i hope that i can bring back the time when she's clueless with everything....i hope i didn't give her a single hint about it....sana i not contemplating about everything...sana i am not regretting every single step i did....
ano ba kasing dapat kong gawin?? fool myself na HINDI?? we are who we were before...na i view her just like other people.....well, how i wish ganun nga....'coz it's hard to feel this way and be in this situation....but it's not!!
i hope i can distract myself on other things and pretend that everything is alright...and believe in her that nothing has changed....hope that i am a complete fool making myself believe on things i know are not real....
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hope everything will be alright....even i know it might not....
just be hopeful!!
SANA NGA!! i want to go back on how we were before.... i feel comfortable!!
hindi ko alam...pero basta naaasar ako...
akala ko ba tulad pa rin ng dati...walang magbabago...walang maiilang...walang lalayo...
(sabi niya hindi naman daw....pero iba yung feeling ko....i know that there's a big change....i might not know her a lot but i know how she dealt with me before...and comparing it with how she deals with me now, i can really say na may nagbago....)
pero hindi pala...gaya ng inaasahan ko....eto ngayon!!!
kaya nga ako hesitant nung una na sabihin sa kanya eh...kaya nga as much as possible ayokong malaman niya....hangga't maaari itinatago ko sa kanya..
pero ang kulit ko kasi....bakit ko ba kasi sinabi?? kahit na nalaman kong alam na rin niya before ko pa sabihin, wala pa ring pagkakaiba yun....
mas maganda nga sanang hindi ko na lang sinabi kasi at least walang confirmation...wala siyang proof na "ano" ko nga siya...
what am i expecting ba kasi when I told her about dun?? am i expecting na matutuwa siya?? or if not, na everything will be okay and will go back to their proper places and order??......adik nga ako kung ganun....'coz I know that in every little thing we did, nothing will be the same as before....a lot will change....and despite that, ginawa ko pa rin yun!!!
HAY!! i hope that i can bring back the time when she's clueless with everything....i hope i didn't give her a single hint about it....sana i not contemplating about everything...sana i am not regretting every single step i did....
ano ba kasing dapat kong gawin?? fool myself na HINDI?? we are who we were before...na i view her just like other people.....well, how i wish ganun nga....'coz it's hard to feel this way and be in this situation....but it's not!!
i hope i can distract myself on other things and pretend that everything is alright...and believe in her that nothing has changed....hope that i am a complete fool making myself believe on things i know are not real....
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hope everything will be alright....even i know it might not....
just be hopeful!!
SANA NGA!! i want to go back on how we were before.... i feel comfortable!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Out of Ennui (Boredom)
*This is an unedited poem (meaning, without rhyme....by the way, i am not fan of poem with rhymes) i did during our math 122 class....I am a little depress on the result of my first long exam to this subject and that's why I lost my enthusiasm in listening to his lectures....Moreover, I am just being patient before to try listening to his boring and overloading lectures about definitions and theorems of matrices....and now, I break free....the result of the test serves as the catalyst for me to stop my martyrdom...hahaha.....well, I shouldn't hide my boredom in his class, exhaustion, sleepiness, etc.....I won't submit myself to conformity (even though I am an ultimate conformist)....*
*title?? I am not sure!! I am not really good at giving titles.....*
Susubukan kong aliwin ang aking gunita
Gamit ang balintunang kulay ng papel at tinta
Lalayo sa kabagutang dulot ng madla
Sa isang kuwartong puno ng tanikala
Aking gagamutin ang talukap ng aking mata
Na kanina pa bumabagsak sa lalim ng tarangkahan
Patuloy na nilalamon ang buslo ng talinhaga
At tumutulak sa katotohanan patungo sa pangarap
Nais kong patuloy na manindigan sa kamulatang tinatanto
Nang umabot man lamang sa ugong ng simboryong
Gugulantang at gigising sa tulog kong libog
Na tumanga sa kawalang tagos sa nilalayon
Kailan makawawala sa panaginip na ito?
At tumungo sa kamulatang ninanais ng iyo
Sa pagbuka ng bagong liwayway sa kapis na ito
Ang isip na buhay ay patuloy na hungkag at lito
Ako'y nagkukumahog sa pagtakbo't paglayo
Sa layon ng pananatili at paninik-luhod
Dito sa nakaririmarim na pakikipagtalamitam
Ng dunong sa mapanupil na haligi at panulat
Isa itong kalabisan sa hangganan ng pananaw
Lagpas sa katotohanan at rurok ng balintataw
Simula kawalan hanggang kalawakan
'Di tarok ang lalim ng hubong kababawan
*And my Math 122 ends....thanks God!!"
*title?? I am not sure!! I am not really good at giving titles.....*
Susubukan kong aliwin ang aking gunita
Gamit ang balintunang kulay ng papel at tinta
Lalayo sa kabagutang dulot ng madla
Sa isang kuwartong puno ng tanikala
Aking gagamutin ang talukap ng aking mata
Na kanina pa bumabagsak sa lalim ng tarangkahan
Patuloy na nilalamon ang buslo ng talinhaga
At tumutulak sa katotohanan patungo sa pangarap
Nais kong patuloy na manindigan sa kamulatang tinatanto
Nang umabot man lamang sa ugong ng simboryong
Gugulantang at gigising sa tulog kong libog
Na tumanga sa kawalang tagos sa nilalayon
Kailan makawawala sa panaginip na ito?
At tumungo sa kamulatang ninanais ng iyo
Sa pagbuka ng bagong liwayway sa kapis na ito
Ang isip na buhay ay patuloy na hungkag at lito
Ako'y nagkukumahog sa pagtakbo't paglayo
Sa layon ng pananatili at paninik-luhod
Dito sa nakaririmarim na pakikipagtalamitam
Ng dunong sa mapanupil na haligi at panulat
Isa itong kalabisan sa hangganan ng pananaw
Lagpas sa katotohanan at rurok ng balintataw
Simula kawalan hanggang kalawakan
'Di tarok ang lalim ng hubong kababawan
*And my Math 122 ends....thanks God!!"
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
This is me
*hahaha...I love this song...after hearing this on Disney Channel, "Camp Rock" i started singing it over and over.....maybe because I can somehow, but not totally, relate on her situation....that's because I really feel, that I am an introverted kind of person trying to release and express myself....and the theme is cool....I like the lyrics and rhythm....However, the singer sings over-acting.....but nonetheless that didn't make the song less beatiful...*
Lyrics to This Is Me
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Lyrics to This Is Me
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Heaven Knows...
*When I think of her, this is the song that always pops up to my mind*
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till
I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's far away
It just keeps getting stronger
everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows... [x2]
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till
I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's far away
It just keeps getting stronger
everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows... [x2]
Sunday, November 23, 2008
My Overwhelming Experience of God.....A serendipity!!
*This is a summarized diary of my 3 days and 2 nights stay in Pollock for a YFC "Submerge" Camp*
I really want to blog it out - how I felt the ultimate love of God!! I know that this experience of mine change me a lot...I am not the same person I was before...I feel it...I am much much better than that person....because I realize that God is passionately in love with me.....He values me more than anything else....I felt so much love from God....a kind of love that won't turn me down but rather will lift me and will give me hope to find the "simplest to the grandest" beauty of life....
I haven't experience so much love before...I always think, even though I don't admit, that I am incapable of being love. I have friends, family, classmates and same sort of groups but I can't feel the love that binds us....I always think that they are there for me because they just need to....because they are supposed to be with me....because they have no choice but to be with me....I just accept those ideas...Well, it might be true since I am not a very good person, not a happy-to-be-with type of person, not even an open and friendly one, and a lot more bad characteristics to list down....but after my 3 memorable days and 2 inspiring nights with my YFC Family (I love to call them my family 'coz I do believe in my heart that that is how they see me too...a family member to be loved and to be cared of), these ideas changed....I now believe that I am capable of being loved by everyone....that there are people who can love me.....and if there's none, there is one BIG GOD who will always be there to pour out His everlasting love for me...
I am really really happy to join the YFC Camp even though I am just forced to join by Bea (thank you very much Bea because if you don't ask me to join and persuade me, I won't be experiencing this wonderful feeling). I never regret of joining the camp and missing restful sleeps, galaan, homeworks, etc. I never regret it....In fact, I am willing to leave all of this just to join the same camp....The happiness, peace, and love that I felt and is still feeling right now is so much worthy of these sacrifices...
I join YFC camp because I think it is a fun and exciting experience - taking into consideration that we will be staying for 3 days and 2 nights in a "dorm". I always want to have overnights since I always associate this with happiness, freedom, and more time with friends. So when Bea ask me to join YFC camp and told me that it's gonna be an overnight, I felt a strong feeling to join...Then, the camp day come...
That day, I was thinking not to join 'coz the camp gives me lots of problems...I have to carry a lot of things in my class since I don't want to go back home after my class just to get my things (also, I don't have much time since I am in school until 6pm due to a meeting); I also have to cram my assignments since I can't do it while I am in the camp; I can't go to our bonding activity (Saturday) since it overlaps with YFC activities; I don't have much friends in YFC members...actually, only BEA. But despite those problems, I still join the camp...first, because I told Bea that I will be going. Second, because I also told Reyvan that I will be there (since he also signed up). Third, since I am thinking of the Php 500...
When I was in the Xavier Hall, waiting for other to come (actually, I only wait for Bea and Reyvan), I am thinking again not to join....I am thinking a lot of not-so-good things to happen (e.g. I will just be bored since I don't know a lot of people there)...I wait Reyvan for several minutes because he's late....I am thinking that if he didn't come, I won't go since he is the only participant I know...I don't want to go in the camp alone...Not so many people are there in Xavier and I was thinking that it's gonna be boring...Then, some facis came and lead the participant to Pollock...Reyvan is not yet there....I don't have the plan to come with the facis until I see Reyvan or anyone (participant of the camp) that I know....But thanks God, when the people are already moving towards Pollock, Reyvan came and I was relieved...Then, we just follow them....Two facis (Kuya Harold and Kuya James - as far as I remember they are the ones) offered to carry our bags (and mind you, our bags are not light)...well, we gave them our bags, even though we're ashamed to do so, since they are insisting...
When we got to Pollock, I was impressed by the way they treated us...they are very welcoming and very friendly....all of them tried to do something good for us - get us water, talk to us, know our names, etc....I was really happy at that moment...We had GDs and lots of activities...all of those are fun..
Then, we had to listen on talks/sharings....those talks are really good....they are very insightful and full of meaning....I can feel the emotions of the speakers and their sincerity...Actually, I realized that we had common experiences with little differences in details...I also realized that the very good and friendly people who welcomed us in Pollock and served us also gone through trials in life....I thought that they have a very smooth-sailing lives and that they never gone through tests of faith; I am proven wrong...they are much alike to us...they also gone through same human experiences (of dryness, of love, of happiness, of sorrow and grief)...After the talk, we had a group discussion where we have to share our own experiences in life...but I really had nothing to share...i think my life is not so deep as they've gone through...that my view of life is something very shallow and narrow...i never think of deep thoughts and never reflect much about life....But when we are already in our group discussion, I was amazed by myself...i am the one who raised hand first to share (I just feel that I wanted to share a part of my life - even it's not deep it's still what my life is)...I learned a lot of things from the group discussion...a lot of insights and experiences...
The next day, I had less time with YFC since I have a dance practice (for my students) in the whole morning and NSTP in the afternoon...but lesser time doesn't mean lesser happiness, lesser lessons and ideas....In fact, I really had a good day on my 2nd day in Pollock....We had a one-to-one session with our group discussion facilitator....I talk to Kuya Jaron and I am really really happy that he is my facilitator....I felt, when we talk, that he's willing to listen with me...More than that, I felt that I had a Kuya (which I don't have...but I always hope to have)...I felt that there is someone who's willing to listen in my story without condemning me of the bad things I did, willing to advice and help me in my problems, willing to share his own thoughts, ideas and experiences....I really had a good "kuwentuhan" session with him....
The best thing that happen in my 2nd day of stay in Pollock is the acceptance of the gift of the Holy Spirit....I felt very blessed by this....I felt God's love and his beautiful plans for me...I also love the worship part of the night....It's fun and I love seeing people together and happily singing praises to God....I also like the "basaan" part of the camp....it's really fun but cold!!
The last day concluded the camp very well...I was thinking on that last day that I will really miss the camp...all the things about the camp....We had not much activity on that day....but it's not about the quantity of the activity but the quality of it...I was touched by the activities we had....we worship, we wrote letters to the people in the camp, and a lot more...
But the most touching and memorable part of the camp for me is the washing of the feet....it sticks to my mind...I am not a very sensitive and "iyakin" type of person but this thing always makes me feel that I wanted to cry (and it really made me cry)...I felt that the people of YFC really felt the love of God...that they do believe that God truly loves them....and they wanted to share that love with us....they want us to feel the same love from God that they feel...Kuya Byronne tell us that God really loves them and so are we....they are not doing all of these things because they are required to do so but rather they are willing to do it because God showed them so much love....so much love that they are willing to go beyond themselves and share it to others....to serve and not count the cost....to love and not ask for reciprocity....
I really miss this experience...I want to go back in Pollock and treasure every moment I have there (with my YFC Family - I am comfortable calling them my family 'coz they truly are)....I somehow regret taking for granted some details of my camp experience....i somehow regret that i didn't stay in Pollock for the whole 3 days and 2 nights since I have my other commitments (NSTP and practice)....i somehow regret that i didn't talk to the people in the camp much....i somehow regret a lot of things....but never i will ever regret that i joined the camp and be in Pollock when I can just be anywhere else and having fun or focus on my workloads....
I love all the people in the camp...my YFC Family....I treasure every moment with you guys....You made me realize a lot of things about myself, others, and God...and because of you, I will never ever be the same again....
I really want to blog it out - how I felt the ultimate love of God!! I know that this experience of mine change me a lot...I am not the same person I was before...I feel it...I am much much better than that person....because I realize that God is passionately in love with me.....He values me more than anything else....I felt so much love from God....a kind of love that won't turn me down but rather will lift me and will give me hope to find the "simplest to the grandest" beauty of life....
I haven't experience so much love before...I always think, even though I don't admit, that I am incapable of being love. I have friends, family, classmates and same sort of groups but I can't feel the love that binds us....I always think that they are there for me because they just need to....because they are supposed to be with me....because they have no choice but to be with me....I just accept those ideas...Well, it might be true since I am not a very good person, not a happy-to-be-with type of person, not even an open and friendly one, and a lot more bad characteristics to list down....but after my 3 memorable days and 2 inspiring nights with my YFC Family (I love to call them my family 'coz I do believe in my heart that that is how they see me too...a family member to be loved and to be cared of), these ideas changed....I now believe that I am capable of being loved by everyone....that there are people who can love me.....and if there's none, there is one BIG GOD who will always be there to pour out His everlasting love for me...
I am really really happy to join the YFC Camp even though I am just forced to join by Bea (thank you very much Bea because if you don't ask me to join and persuade me, I won't be experiencing this wonderful feeling). I never regret of joining the camp and missing restful sleeps, galaan, homeworks, etc. I never regret it....In fact, I am willing to leave all of this just to join the same camp....The happiness, peace, and love that I felt and is still feeling right now is so much worthy of these sacrifices...
I join YFC camp because I think it is a fun and exciting experience - taking into consideration that we will be staying for 3 days and 2 nights in a "dorm". I always want to have overnights since I always associate this with happiness, freedom, and more time with friends. So when Bea ask me to join YFC camp and told me that it's gonna be an overnight, I felt a strong feeling to join...Then, the camp day come...
That day, I was thinking not to join 'coz the camp gives me lots of problems...I have to carry a lot of things in my class since I don't want to go back home after my class just to get my things (also, I don't have much time since I am in school until 6pm due to a meeting); I also have to cram my assignments since I can't do it while I am in the camp; I can't go to our bonding activity (Saturday) since it overlaps with YFC activities; I don't have much friends in YFC members...actually, only BEA. But despite those problems, I still join the camp...first, because I told Bea that I will be going. Second, because I also told Reyvan that I will be there (since he also signed up). Third, since I am thinking of the Php 500...
When I was in the Xavier Hall, waiting for other to come (actually, I only wait for Bea and Reyvan), I am thinking again not to join....I am thinking a lot of not-so-good things to happen (e.g. I will just be bored since I don't know a lot of people there)...I wait Reyvan for several minutes because he's late....I am thinking that if he didn't come, I won't go since he is the only participant I know...I don't want to go in the camp alone...Not so many people are there in Xavier and I was thinking that it's gonna be boring...Then, some facis came and lead the participant to Pollock...Reyvan is not yet there....I don't have the plan to come with the facis until I see Reyvan or anyone (participant of the camp) that I know....But thanks God, when the people are already moving towards Pollock, Reyvan came and I was relieved...Then, we just follow them....Two facis (Kuya Harold and Kuya James - as far as I remember they are the ones) offered to carry our bags (and mind you, our bags are not light)...well, we gave them our bags, even though we're ashamed to do so, since they are insisting...
When we got to Pollock, I was impressed by the way they treated us...they are very welcoming and very friendly....all of them tried to do something good for us - get us water, talk to us, know our names, etc....I was really happy at that moment...We had GDs and lots of activities...all of those are fun..
Then, we had to listen on talks/sharings....those talks are really good....they are very insightful and full of meaning....I can feel the emotions of the speakers and their sincerity...Actually, I realized that we had common experiences with little differences in details...I also realized that the very good and friendly people who welcomed us in Pollock and served us also gone through trials in life....I thought that they have a very smooth-sailing lives and that they never gone through tests of faith; I am proven wrong...they are much alike to us...they also gone through same human experiences (of dryness, of love, of happiness, of sorrow and grief)...After the talk, we had a group discussion where we have to share our own experiences in life...but I really had nothing to share...i think my life is not so deep as they've gone through...that my view of life is something very shallow and narrow...i never think of deep thoughts and never reflect much about life....But when we are already in our group discussion, I was amazed by myself...i am the one who raised hand first to share (I just feel that I wanted to share a part of my life - even it's not deep it's still what my life is)...I learned a lot of things from the group discussion...a lot of insights and experiences...
The next day, I had less time with YFC since I have a dance practice (for my students) in the whole morning and NSTP in the afternoon...but lesser time doesn't mean lesser happiness, lesser lessons and ideas....In fact, I really had a good day on my 2nd day in Pollock....We had a one-to-one session with our group discussion facilitator....I talk to Kuya Jaron and I am really really happy that he is my facilitator....I felt, when we talk, that he's willing to listen with me...More than that, I felt that I had a Kuya (which I don't have...but I always hope to have)...I felt that there is someone who's willing to listen in my story without condemning me of the bad things I did, willing to advice and help me in my problems, willing to share his own thoughts, ideas and experiences....I really had a good "kuwentuhan" session with him....
The best thing that happen in my 2nd day of stay in Pollock is the acceptance of the gift of the Holy Spirit....I felt very blessed by this....I felt God's love and his beautiful plans for me...I also love the worship part of the night....It's fun and I love seeing people together and happily singing praises to God....I also like the "basaan" part of the camp....it's really fun but cold!!
The last day concluded the camp very well...I was thinking on that last day that I will really miss the camp...all the things about the camp....We had not much activity on that day....but it's not about the quantity of the activity but the quality of it...I was touched by the activities we had....we worship, we wrote letters to the people in the camp, and a lot more...
But the most touching and memorable part of the camp for me is the washing of the feet....it sticks to my mind...I am not a very sensitive and "iyakin" type of person but this thing always makes me feel that I wanted to cry (and it really made me cry)...I felt that the people of YFC really felt the love of God...that they do believe that God truly loves them....and they wanted to share that love with us....they want us to feel the same love from God that they feel...Kuya Byronne tell us that God really loves them and so are we....they are not doing all of these things because they are required to do so but rather they are willing to do it because God showed them so much love....so much love that they are willing to go beyond themselves and share it to others....to serve and not count the cost....to love and not ask for reciprocity....
I really miss this experience...I want to go back in Pollock and treasure every moment I have there (with my YFC Family - I am comfortable calling them my family 'coz they truly are)....I somehow regret taking for granted some details of my camp experience....i somehow regret that i didn't stay in Pollock for the whole 3 days and 2 nights since I have my other commitments (NSTP and practice)....i somehow regret that i didn't talk to the people in the camp much....i somehow regret a lot of things....but never i will ever regret that i joined the camp and be in Pollock when I can just be anywhere else and having fun or focus on my workloads....
I love all the people in the camp...my YFC Family....I treasure every moment with you guys....You made me realize a lot of things about myself, others, and God...and because of you, I will never ever be the same again....
Saturday, November 15, 2008
What a REALLY NICE day!! (Isn't it??)
I have lots of things to do this day. I have to attend an orientation seminar for the Blue Christmas event on December 6 (for the kid beneficiaries of different student organizations of Ateneo); this is also our first day of NSTP; and I have a meeting for the Greenwich Social Enterprise.
So, where should I start narrating what happen this day??
OK...
I woke up considerably late (around 7:00AM). Then, I hurried eating breakfast and doing my stuff before leaving (I omitted other details since those are that important and it'll just make my blog longer). When I was already in the jeepney, I handed my fare to a man in front of me. He was around 30's. He get my fare without looking at me (well, actually he shouldn't suppose to). Then, when he handed me my fare, he suddenly had a glimpse of me and after that he look at me frequently (or on a regular basis). I was, of course, felt awkward. I just think that he do not really intend to look at me. However, the situation intensified. When a couple of people got into the jeepney, he moved very close to me such that his elbow is overlapping with mine. More than that, he looked to me in a fixed position. He stared at me....imagine??...He pushed himself closer to me while staring and having his malicious grimace at me. I was, of course, super duper mega over wonderlistic mighty marvel ultra powerblast extrahyperactive expedition to the max with wings NERVOUS. A lot of bad things came to my mind. I think that he maybe a thief or the like. Even though i am not yet in my destination, I already want to move out of the jeep. But I resist it.
While he moved closer to me, I moved father and farther to him. He don't look like a gay, but he really might be. Then, to make the long story short, I reached my destination safely. When I went down the jeep, he said "goodbye" and gave me a FLYING KISS....SHOOT!!!....He's a GAY!!....I can't take it....I was harassed by a gay....I felt so aggravated....I want to go back in the jeepney and punch him straightly in his face....but of course, I don't. I still have control...
Well, that's the highlight of my day....which is not likely to be considered NICE....it's a real sarcasm to say so.
But the real nice thing today is that I had fun in Blue Christmas Orientation. I met a lot of new friends (since I don't have much choice because I only knew 1 person there). We hadd cool GDs and fun other activities. The foods are fairly delicious. The people are also nice and welcoming.
Another thing that made (and stil making) me happy this day is that I saw KIM CHARMAINE CORTEZ in my NSTP class....the one I love...hahaha.....I saw her after lots of weeks. We had a vacation and we haven't seen each other on that time frame. Moreover, we are not classmates on any subjects (except NSTP)...I always look forward to my NSTP class because she's there and I can talk to her atleast (that's one reason). I am already happy by just a sight of her (oohhh....sweet!). But no kidding, I am really happy seeing her. Because she's such an enthusiastic person and she really makes me happy (besides the fact that I love her)..
a very balanced day - of grief and joy!!
fairly nice day, isn't it??
Maybe that's all for now....
So, where should I start narrating what happen this day??
OK...
I woke up considerably late (around 7:00AM). Then, I hurried eating breakfast and doing my stuff before leaving (I omitted other details since those are that important and it'll just make my blog longer). When I was already in the jeepney, I handed my fare to a man in front of me. He was around 30's. He get my fare without looking at me (well, actually he shouldn't suppose to). Then, when he handed me my fare, he suddenly had a glimpse of me and after that he look at me frequently (or on a regular basis). I was, of course, felt awkward. I just think that he do not really intend to look at me. However, the situation intensified. When a couple of people got into the jeepney, he moved very close to me such that his elbow is overlapping with mine. More than that, he looked to me in a fixed position. He stared at me....imagine??...He pushed himself closer to me while staring and having his malicious grimace at me. I was, of course, super duper mega over wonderlistic mighty marvel ultra powerblast extrahyperactive expedition to the max with wings NERVOUS. A lot of bad things came to my mind. I think that he maybe a thief or the like. Even though i am not yet in my destination, I already want to move out of the jeep. But I resist it.
While he moved closer to me, I moved father and farther to him. He don't look like a gay, but he really might be. Then, to make the long story short, I reached my destination safely. When I went down the jeep, he said "goodbye" and gave me a FLYING KISS....SHOOT!!!....He's a GAY!!....I can't take it....I was harassed by a gay....I felt so aggravated....I want to go back in the jeepney and punch him straightly in his face....but of course, I don't. I still have control...
Well, that's the highlight of my day....which is not likely to be considered NICE....it's a real sarcasm to say so.
But the real nice thing today is that I had fun in Blue Christmas Orientation. I met a lot of new friends (since I don't have much choice because I only knew 1 person there). We hadd cool GDs and fun other activities. The foods are fairly delicious. The people are also nice and welcoming.
Another thing that made (and stil making) me happy this day is that I saw KIM CHARMAINE CORTEZ in my NSTP class....the one I love...hahaha.....I saw her after lots of weeks. We had a vacation and we haven't seen each other on that time frame. Moreover, we are not classmates on any subjects (except NSTP)...I always look forward to my NSTP class because she's there and I can talk to her atleast (that's one reason). I am already happy by just a sight of her (oohhh....sweet!). But no kidding, I am really happy seeing her. Because she's such an enthusiastic person and she really makes me happy (besides the fact that I love her)..
a very balanced day - of grief and joy!!
fairly nice day, isn't it??
Maybe that's all for now....
My MBTI Interpretation
ISTP Relationships
ISTPs are generally extremely capable individuals who are good at most things which interest them. They are usually bright, interesting, and exciting individuals with a lot to offer. They live almost entirely in the present moment, and usually do not make commitments beyond the immediate foreseeable future. An ISTP probably coined the phrase "nothing is unconditional". They strongly prefer to take things one day at a time, rather than make long-term commitments. If a relationship interests them and satisfies their needs, the ISTP will do their part on a daily basis to keep the relationship strong and healthy. If they lose interest in a relationship, their natural tendency will be to move on.
ISTP Strengths
* Good listeners
* Usually self-confident
* Generally optimistic and fun to be with
* Practical and realistic, they handle daily concerns
* Are not threatened by conflict or criticism
* Able to leave a relationship with relative ease once it is over
* Able to administer punishment, although they're not interested in doing so
* Likely to respect other's needs for space and privacy
ISTP Weaknesses
* Living entirely in the present, they have difficulty with long-term commitments
* Not naturally good at expressing feelings and emotions
* Not tuned in to what others are feeling, they may be insensitive at times
* Tendency to be overly private and hold back part of themselves
* Need a lot of personal space, which they don't like to have invaded
* They thrive on action and excitement, and may stir things up to create it
ISTPs as Lovers
"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May
ISTPs can be very intense and exciting individuals. Their strong Thinking preference makes them seem rather aloof and "hard to get". Their Sensing and Perceiving preferences make them sensual, earthy individuals. These attributes frequently make them attractive to the opposite sex. ISTPs live entirely in the current moment, which makes them especially interested in new sensations and experiences. They strongly dislike routine and strict schedules, and resist being controlled by others. They are fiercely independent and need their own space within a relationship. When involved in relationships which provide for their basic needs and which present them with new experiences, the ISTP will be happy to do what's necessary to keep the relationship alive and well. If a relationship becomes boring or oppressive to the ISTP, they will try to fix it, or move on. ISTPs take their commitments on a day-by-day basis. Even if they say "I do", it usually means "I do for now". They do not like to make lifelong commitments, although they may very well be involved in lifelong relationships which they have taken one day at a time.
Sexually, the ISTP approaches intimacy as a physical act rather than an expression of love and affection. They are earthy and sensual beings who enthusiastically experience sex with all five senses. They bring spontaneity, creativity, and enthusiasm into the bedroom, and enjoy new experiences. Since aesthetic beauty has such strong appeal to them, they appreciate the "setting", i.e. bedding, lingerie, cologne, etc.
ISTPs love to fix things, and may create problems in their personal relationships, just so that they can have the fun of fixing them.
They have a tendency to hold back their own views on things. They like to listen to other people's views, but are generally non-commital about expressing their own opinions. ISTPs have a habit of evading answering questions by asking more questions. This can be frustrating at times to their mates, if they are after a direct answer. The ISTP's decision making process is entirely internal, so they don't feel much need to share their opinions with others. When they are interacting with others, they are in "information gathering" mode, so they tend to ask questions rather than share views. The ISTP just doesn't feel the need to expose themselves fully to others. When it comes to intimate relationships, the ISTP has the further motivation of protecting themselves. Most ISTPs are afraid of having to deal with their deeper feelings. Since their Thinking preference dominates their personality, their Feeling side is their least developed (inferior) function. Consequently, ISTPs are usually quite vulnerable and perhaps weak when dealing with their feelings. Their habit of keeping part of themselves hidden may also serve the purpose of keeping a protective wall around their hearts.
Although the ISTP does not usually have a well-developed Feeling side, they frequently do have intense feelings for people. They can feel overpowering love for their mates, although they are likely not to express their emotions, or to express them inadequately or inappropriately if they do venture towards expression. However, unlike many of the other personality types, ISTPs feel strong affections one day at a time. One day, they may feel completely, intensely in love with their mate, and the next day they may be totally disinterested, or perhaps even ready to move on. This "live for the moment" type of approach is different from how most other types experience their feelings, and is difficult for many to understand. Consequently, the ISTP may be called "fickle" or "cold". In fact, they are not really fickle, and certainly not cold. They simply experience their lives on a moment by moment basis, and go along with it's natural flow. However, since most people need more commitment than can be offered when taking things day-by-day, the ISTP who wants to remain in a relationship will have to resolve themself towards being involved in a more traditional commitment. For most ISTPs, making a commitment to an intimate relationship will require an effort to stretch themselves outside of their comfort zones. However, those who do so will realize that they can enjoy the benefits of a strong, committed relationship and still live their lives in the present tense.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the ISTP's natural partner is the ESTJ, or the ENTJ. ISTP's dominant function of Introverted Thinking is best matched with a partner whose personality is dominated by Extraverted Thinking. The ISTP/ESTJ combination is ideal, because both types share the Sensing preference for perceiving the world, but ISTP/ENTJ is also a good combination. How did we arrive at this?
ISTPs as Parents
"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran
ISTPs are flexible, laid-back, uncontrolling parents who like to take things as they come. Their dislike of being controlled or controlling others extends to their children as well, and they're consequently likely to give their kids a lot of breathing room and space for individual growth. However, when discipline is required, the ISTP will be able to administer it without too much difficulty. They may have difficulty mustering up the enthusiasm to discipline their kids, but once they get going they'll be effective.
ISTP parents are likely to maintain a distance between themselves and their children. They do not feel a tremendous need to pass on their values to their children, or to influence their decisions in life. They're likely to rely on their mates for creating a structured environment for their children to live within. ISTPs do not like to be directed or controlled, and are not likely to direct and control others - including their children. They're likely to be relatively uninvolved with the daily happenings of family life, without making a conscious effort to keep interested.
ISTPs will enjoy spending one-on-one time with their children pursuing outdoorsy activities, such as fishing, boating, hunting, etc. It is during these private moments that the ISTP will take the opportunity to get to know their children's perspectives, and to pass on the ISTP's interests and perspectives.
ISTPs as Friends
ISTPs have an enthusiastic, childlike approach to life that is attractive to others. As Introverted Thinkers, they also have some real substance to them which prevents them from being entirely frivolous and hedonic in their pursuits. They are laid-back and flexible, and generally accepting of a wide range of behavior. These attributes make them valued friends and confidantes.
ISTPs usually have a selection of friends who share their love of particular hobbies and pasttimes. They might have a friend who they ski with, and another who they shoot pool with, etc. They generally have no interest or patience with individuals who do not share their interests, and will spend little or no time with them. They have a difficult time understanding people with extremely strong iNtuitive preferences, and are not likely to spend time with these individuals unless they share a common interest or hobby. They enjoy spending time with Extraverts, whose enthusiastic, talkative natures are attractive to the more reserved ISTP, but they will eventually tire of their "bubbliness". The ISTP is able to get along well with people of any personality type, but is likely to value and bond only those with whom they have common interests.
ISTPs are generally extremely capable individuals who are good at most things which interest them. They are usually bright, interesting, and exciting individuals with a lot to offer. They live almost entirely in the present moment, and usually do not make commitments beyond the immediate foreseeable future. An ISTP probably coined the phrase "nothing is unconditional". They strongly prefer to take things one day at a time, rather than make long-term commitments. If a relationship interests them and satisfies their needs, the ISTP will do their part on a daily basis to keep the relationship strong and healthy. If they lose interest in a relationship, their natural tendency will be to move on.
ISTP Strengths
* Good listeners
* Usually self-confident
* Generally optimistic and fun to be with
* Practical and realistic, they handle daily concerns
* Are not threatened by conflict or criticism
* Able to leave a relationship with relative ease once it is over
* Able to administer punishment, although they're not interested in doing so
* Likely to respect other's needs for space and privacy
ISTP Weaknesses
* Living entirely in the present, they have difficulty with long-term commitments
* Not naturally good at expressing feelings and emotions
* Not tuned in to what others are feeling, they may be insensitive at times
* Tendency to be overly private and hold back part of themselves
* Need a lot of personal space, which they don't like to have invaded
* They thrive on action and excitement, and may stir things up to create it
ISTPs as Lovers
"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May
ISTPs can be very intense and exciting individuals. Their strong Thinking preference makes them seem rather aloof and "hard to get". Their Sensing and Perceiving preferences make them sensual, earthy individuals. These attributes frequently make them attractive to the opposite sex. ISTPs live entirely in the current moment, which makes them especially interested in new sensations and experiences. They strongly dislike routine and strict schedules, and resist being controlled by others. They are fiercely independent and need their own space within a relationship. When involved in relationships which provide for their basic needs and which present them with new experiences, the ISTP will be happy to do what's necessary to keep the relationship alive and well. If a relationship becomes boring or oppressive to the ISTP, they will try to fix it, or move on. ISTPs take their commitments on a day-by-day basis. Even if they say "I do", it usually means "I do for now". They do not like to make lifelong commitments, although they may very well be involved in lifelong relationships which they have taken one day at a time.
Sexually, the ISTP approaches intimacy as a physical act rather than an expression of love and affection. They are earthy and sensual beings who enthusiastically experience sex with all five senses. They bring spontaneity, creativity, and enthusiasm into the bedroom, and enjoy new experiences. Since aesthetic beauty has such strong appeal to them, they appreciate the "setting", i.e. bedding, lingerie, cologne, etc.
ISTPs love to fix things, and may create problems in their personal relationships, just so that they can have the fun of fixing them.
They have a tendency to hold back their own views on things. They like to listen to other people's views, but are generally non-commital about expressing their own opinions. ISTPs have a habit of evading answering questions by asking more questions. This can be frustrating at times to their mates, if they are after a direct answer. The ISTP's decision making process is entirely internal, so they don't feel much need to share their opinions with others. When they are interacting with others, they are in "information gathering" mode, so they tend to ask questions rather than share views. The ISTP just doesn't feel the need to expose themselves fully to others. When it comes to intimate relationships, the ISTP has the further motivation of protecting themselves. Most ISTPs are afraid of having to deal with their deeper feelings. Since their Thinking preference dominates their personality, their Feeling side is their least developed (inferior) function. Consequently, ISTPs are usually quite vulnerable and perhaps weak when dealing with their feelings. Their habit of keeping part of themselves hidden may also serve the purpose of keeping a protective wall around their hearts.
Although the ISTP does not usually have a well-developed Feeling side, they frequently do have intense feelings for people. They can feel overpowering love for their mates, although they are likely not to express their emotions, or to express them inadequately or inappropriately if they do venture towards expression. However, unlike many of the other personality types, ISTPs feel strong affections one day at a time. One day, they may feel completely, intensely in love with their mate, and the next day they may be totally disinterested, or perhaps even ready to move on. This "live for the moment" type of approach is different from how most other types experience their feelings, and is difficult for many to understand. Consequently, the ISTP may be called "fickle" or "cold". In fact, they are not really fickle, and certainly not cold. They simply experience their lives on a moment by moment basis, and go along with it's natural flow. However, since most people need more commitment than can be offered when taking things day-by-day, the ISTP who wants to remain in a relationship will have to resolve themself towards being involved in a more traditional commitment. For most ISTPs, making a commitment to an intimate relationship will require an effort to stretch themselves outside of their comfort zones. However, those who do so will realize that they can enjoy the benefits of a strong, committed relationship and still live their lives in the present tense.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the ISTP's natural partner is the ESTJ, or the ENTJ. ISTP's dominant function of Introverted Thinking is best matched with a partner whose personality is dominated by Extraverted Thinking. The ISTP/ESTJ combination is ideal, because both types share the Sensing preference for perceiving the world, but ISTP/ENTJ is also a good combination. How did we arrive at this?
ISTPs as Parents
"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran
ISTPs are flexible, laid-back, uncontrolling parents who like to take things as they come. Their dislike of being controlled or controlling others extends to their children as well, and they're consequently likely to give their kids a lot of breathing room and space for individual growth. However, when discipline is required, the ISTP will be able to administer it without too much difficulty. They may have difficulty mustering up the enthusiasm to discipline their kids, but once they get going they'll be effective.
ISTP parents are likely to maintain a distance between themselves and their children. They do not feel a tremendous need to pass on their values to their children, or to influence their decisions in life. They're likely to rely on their mates for creating a structured environment for their children to live within. ISTPs do not like to be directed or controlled, and are not likely to direct and control others - including their children. They're likely to be relatively uninvolved with the daily happenings of family life, without making a conscious effort to keep interested.
ISTPs will enjoy spending one-on-one time with their children pursuing outdoorsy activities, such as fishing, boating, hunting, etc. It is during these private moments that the ISTP will take the opportunity to get to know their children's perspectives, and to pass on the ISTP's interests and perspectives.
ISTPs as Friends
ISTPs have an enthusiastic, childlike approach to life that is attractive to others. As Introverted Thinkers, they also have some real substance to them which prevents them from being entirely frivolous and hedonic in their pursuits. They are laid-back and flexible, and generally accepting of a wide range of behavior. These attributes make them valued friends and confidantes.
ISTPs usually have a selection of friends who share their love of particular hobbies and pasttimes. They might have a friend who they ski with, and another who they shoot pool with, etc. They generally have no interest or patience with individuals who do not share their interests, and will spend little or no time with them. They have a difficult time understanding people with extremely strong iNtuitive preferences, and are not likely to spend time with these individuals unless they share a common interest or hobby. They enjoy spending time with Extraverts, whose enthusiastic, talkative natures are attractive to the more reserved ISTP, but they will eventually tire of their "bubbliness". The ISTP is able to get along well with people of any personality type, but is likely to value and bond only those with whom they have common interests.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
FUN and new experience!!
I saw my friend Rose Ann last Wednesday at UP while I and my other friend was walking along the UP Circle (Sunken Garden). We were walking there after we had gone to UP Shopping Center to photocopy a book in our Accounting class, and eat pancit canton, ice cream and biko (i don't know if that's biko). So, ok. When I saw my friend Rose Ann (who I've never seen for reasonably...a long time), we had a little talk which leads to a once in a lifetime experience.
We were talking about our experience on our first days of this sem when suddenly, an idea pops up in my mind. I and my other friend (Steph) come to realize that we have no class on friday (which is definitely this day) and we want a new college experience. So, I asked Rose Ann if we can sit-in in her classes. Well, I think she regards me as her true friend since she did not hesitate even a bit. She immediately said yes and asked me what day do I want to sit-in. Then, I told her that we do not have class on friday and she gave me her class schedule for friday (which will also be my own class schedule on that day). I was so happy and excited when she handed me her schedule. Well, i will gonna be a totally new experience to have a class in UP.
Then, Friday comes (yah, of course....it's already friday). I went to Ateneo Dorm to pick up my friend Steph at around 830. Then, we walked towards gate 3.5 and walk again towards Merriam College (since the jeepneys goiung to UP are stopping there). On our way going to UP, we are so excited even though we did not know where our first classroom is. UP is not as big as Ateneo but rather it is really BIGGER than Ateneo. So, what did we do?? well, we asked the driver to stop in front of Llamas Hall (which is our first stop for OUR, especially MY, first subject -- PHYSICS).
When we go down the jeep, we get a little bit afraid. Things such as being called in a recitation, a pop quiz by a teacher, checking of OFFICIAL attendance, and a lot more bothered us. But we are already there and so we must continue. We've gone far enough and there's no way for quitting. We should just try and if we fail then we still have ATENEO (by the way, I want Ateneo better than UP. I just want a new experience that's why I want to attend their classes). So, there. We are already late based on our watch and we still have to walk some meter to get into the building and so to the classroom. When we get into the front of the building, we are really afraid since a guard was standing in the entourage of the building. But, well I cannot be hindered. I am oblivious of the danger. So, I just passed through him as if I am a common student of UP......and......it worked. I'm IN!! woohhooo.....yehey!
And the day flowed smoothly. OUR Physics teacher distributed his syllabus and continue the lesson he started on the previous days (I am not there but he just said he discussed this and this on the past meetings of the class - so he just really continue his lesson). Well, he's good but I like my Physics teacher (in Ateneo) more. Then, my next class is Engineering Science, which is practically the same as my physics class and vector analysis in Ateneo (oohh...I'm becoming geek!). We are late because UP have no idea of what a BELL is. Our first teacher did not dismissed us around 10 mins before the real dismissal so that we will have time to walk or take a ride to our next class (in short, he's not considerate). But it's ok. Our next teacher do not check attendance and according to Rose Ann, the seats are on the "first come, first sit" basis. The class is fairly well but a bit boring because we already tackle that, in Ateneo, last sem. The teacher also adds up to the boredom (Rose Ann told me she is also bored in that class). Then, the class ended and I am back to normal.
But before I come back to normal, I taste the sweetest thing about UP --- their variety of foods (and also affordable compare to our school). I am really hungry so I ate there. I am pretty much fine with what I ate and I am really full with what I ate. However, I don't know how my food is called -- it's either adobo or lechong paksiw or combination of both but I am not really sure.
Then, we walked back to Ateneo and I did what I am supposed to do -- it is so many to mention. I am back to reality and to where I really belong!!
But I will miss the experience. Thank you Rose Ann...and of course....to UP!!
We were talking about our experience on our first days of this sem when suddenly, an idea pops up in my mind. I and my other friend (Steph) come to realize that we have no class on friday (which is definitely this day) and we want a new college experience. So, I asked Rose Ann if we can sit-in in her classes. Well, I think she regards me as her true friend since she did not hesitate even a bit. She immediately said yes and asked me what day do I want to sit-in. Then, I told her that we do not have class on friday and she gave me her class schedule for friday (which will also be my own class schedule on that day). I was so happy and excited when she handed me her schedule. Well, i will gonna be a totally new experience to have a class in UP.
Then, Friday comes (yah, of course....it's already friday). I went to Ateneo Dorm to pick up my friend Steph at around 830. Then, we walked towards gate 3.5 and walk again towards Merriam College (since the jeepneys goiung to UP are stopping there). On our way going to UP, we are so excited even though we did not know where our first classroom is. UP is not as big as Ateneo but rather it is really BIGGER than Ateneo. So, what did we do?? well, we asked the driver to stop in front of Llamas Hall (which is our first stop for OUR, especially MY, first subject -- PHYSICS).
When we go down the jeep, we get a little bit afraid. Things such as being called in a recitation, a pop quiz by a teacher, checking of OFFICIAL attendance, and a lot more bothered us. But we are already there and so we must continue. We've gone far enough and there's no way for quitting. We should just try and if we fail then we still have ATENEO (by the way, I want Ateneo better than UP. I just want a new experience that's why I want to attend their classes). So, there. We are already late based on our watch and we still have to walk some meter to get into the building and so to the classroom. When we get into the front of the building, we are really afraid since a guard was standing in the entourage of the building. But, well I cannot be hindered. I am oblivious of the danger. So, I just passed through him as if I am a common student of UP......and......it worked. I'm IN!! woohhooo.....yehey!
And the day flowed smoothly. OUR Physics teacher distributed his syllabus and continue the lesson he started on the previous days (I am not there but he just said he discussed this and this on the past meetings of the class - so he just really continue his lesson). Well, he's good but I like my Physics teacher (in Ateneo) more. Then, my next class is Engineering Science, which is practically the same as my physics class and vector analysis in Ateneo (oohh...I'm becoming geek!). We are late because UP have no idea of what a BELL is. Our first teacher did not dismissed us around 10 mins before the real dismissal so that we will have time to walk or take a ride to our next class (in short, he's not considerate). But it's ok. Our next teacher do not check attendance and according to Rose Ann, the seats are on the "first come, first sit" basis. The class is fairly well but a bit boring because we already tackle that, in Ateneo, last sem. The teacher also adds up to the boredom (Rose Ann told me she is also bored in that class). Then, the class ended and I am back to normal.
But before I come back to normal, I taste the sweetest thing about UP --- their variety of foods (and also affordable compare to our school). I am really hungry so I ate there. I am pretty much fine with what I ate and I am really full with what I ate. However, I don't know how my food is called -- it's either adobo or lechong paksiw or combination of both but I am not really sure.
Then, we walked back to Ateneo and I did what I am supposed to do -- it is so many to mention. I am back to reality and to where I really belong!!
But I will miss the experience. Thank you Rose Ann...and of course....to UP!!
I miss HER...
It was already 4 days ago since the 2nd sem started. It started fair well and there is not much pressure as of now. I really miss my school even though last semester is a little bit traumatic (2 math subjects plus a spicy flavor of accounting). Well, it isn't that bad taking into account that I actually passed - but that is so mediocre (sometimes it isn't bad to be one). But despite my experience of the past semester (or even semesters), I still miss my school. You know why??
Actually, I have lot of suppositions. First, maybe that's because I really crave for knowledge which is very eccentric to happen (since when did I crave for knowledge?). Second, it may be because of the soothing and relaxing ambiance of Ateneo (as if i still noticed it amid lots of homeworks, long tests and projects?!). Third, maybe I just missed my classmates and friends (CHEESY!! - as if they also missed me..hahaha..emo!!). Fourth...hmmm....do i miss my teachers?? (weeh...is that real??).
Well, I do not have an exact answer why I miss my school. The idea of missing my school is in itself very perplexing.... Oh! but wait...I think I already know....hahaha.....yah!~ i think i already know...
I miss my school because of the simple reason that I do nothing at home (especially when it is vacation). I just felt so inefficient and unproductive. While in school, because of tidious tasks that our professors gave us, I felt that I did lots of job - and so, I felt so adroit since I handle those well...hahaha....
Schooling gives me somehow a worth...and maybe that's the reason why I miss HER..
Actually, I have lot of suppositions. First, maybe that's because I really crave for knowledge which is very eccentric to happen (since when did I crave for knowledge?). Second, it may be because of the soothing and relaxing ambiance of Ateneo (as if i still noticed it amid lots of homeworks, long tests and projects?!). Third, maybe I just missed my classmates and friends (CHEESY!! - as if they also missed me..hahaha..emo!!). Fourth...hmmm....do i miss my teachers?? (weeh...is that real??).
Well, I do not have an exact answer why I miss my school. The idea of missing my school is in itself very perplexing.... Oh! but wait...I think I already know....hahaha.....yah!~ i think i already know...
I miss my school because of the simple reason that I do nothing at home (especially when it is vacation). I just felt so inefficient and unproductive. While in school, because of tidious tasks that our professors gave us, I felt that I did lots of job - and so, I felt so adroit since I handle those well...hahaha....
Schooling gives me somehow a worth...and maybe that's the reason why I miss HER..
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I'm back!!
Hahaha...matagal na panahon na rin ang nakalipas mula ng huli akong mag-blog sa blogspot kong ito...
nakakatuwa naman...kasi akala ko hindi na ulit ako mag-ba-blog dito...
bakit ko nga ba naiisipang mag-blog ulit?? hmmp...hindi ko rin alam eh..
kasi medyo balisa ako nung mga nakaraang araw...hindi ko alam kung bakit...feeling ko may kakaiba sa akin...parang masyado akong iritable...tapos nag-iisip ng WALA (buti nga sana kung may naiisip ako - pero talagang wala eh)...
wish ko tuloy, sana magbakasyon na...para naman medyo makapahinga ako...baka pagod lang 'to!! pero sana nga makapagpahinga ako sa bakasyon...kasi may workshop pa kami ng dance for Pathways..
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anu ba ang pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon??
Sagot: Marami....as in MARAMI!! kasi naman ang daming long tests at projects....kulang sa time para makapag-review!! hay, buti na lang may inspiration ako....hahaha....pero i hope sana inspiration niya rin ako (ASA!!)
well, masama ba?? "As long as you love, you still have hope" - sabi 'yan sa "Love of Siam"
speaking of "Love of Siam" ------ sobrang adik na ako sa film na ito!! simula ng pinanuod sa akin 'to ni Reyvan, hindi na ako matahimik sa kakaisip...kasi naman sobrang depressing ng ending...parang after watching that wonderful film for 3 hours, biglang ganun na yung ending....well, maganda yung style ng writer in ending his film but ayoko ng "hanging" na ending....in technical terms, "enigmatic" (that's according to my friend, steph). I want a satisfying ending for this film. Kasi naman sobrang ganda nung story line....tsaka sobrang meaningful nung script ng film.... it's deep yet easy to grasp....moreover, sad yung start nung film and you didn't know how will the film end....is it happy or still sad??.... wala akong relieve na naramdaman nung nag-end yung film....parang i'm still hanging with my emotions...parang i'm stuck in the middle of all emotions in the world and i did not know how to react...
pero in the end, it just mean na convincing yung film and it won the attention and sympathy of its viewer (hindi ba halata?? sobrang nadala kaya ako!!)..
i already recommended it to my friends (and is still recommending)...and some of them who did watch the movie are really satisfied...in fact, they too loved the movie....hahaha....and some of them (or almost all of them) ay adik na rin ngayon sa film and sa mga actors...
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suddenly, i remember my childhood dream.....maybe it's because of lots of stress in the school....
kasi nahihirapan na ako sa mga subjects ko and feeling ko tuloy hindi na ako masaya sa ginagawa ko....kasi i feel happy when i had achievement on the things i did....
pero ngayon sobrang down yung pakiramdam ko sa mga ginagawa ko...hindi ako nakakaramdam ng sense of achievement....
so going back....ano nga ba yung childhood dream ko??
simple lang naman...kasi before, hindi ako magaling sa kahit anong subject: Math, Science at kung anu-ano pa!!
so, ang gusto ko na lang maging noon ay maging isang artista...kasi naniniwala naman ako, simula pa pagkabata, na CUTE ako!! bakit hindi ba??
ang gusto ko dati ay maging isang sikat na artista....o kaya naman isang theater artist, either a dancer, model, actor or singer (hahaha...dati kasi nag-join ako ng choir....pero ngayon hindi na halatang nag-choir ako before)...at yung pinakamataas na na gusto kong maging ay isang sikat na writer at manalo ng Nobel Prize Award for Literature (hahaha...sumobra naman ata yung taas)!!
pero syempre, hindi naman papayag yung magulang ko niyan...and even yung grandparents ko.....dahil mas importante ang edukasyon!!
well, nag-enjoy naman akong mag-aral lalo na nung high school ako...kasi mataas yung mga grades ko....pero now?? naku!! feeling ko naaasar na akong mag-aral...kasi parang walang patutunguhan...nung high school kasi hindi ako nasanay na mag-aral para pumasa lang...kasi kahit hindi ako mag-review mataas pa rin yung grades ko... pero ngayon...anung aral man ang gawin ko, parang wala pa ring epekto sa grades ko....(wish ko na lang na may isisipag pa ako)..
naiisip ko lang tuloy, is it better kung nag-artista na lang ako? even wala gaanong "substance", atleast may sense of achievement sila....
hay, i should discern it well....kung hindi......ahhmmmm....
EWAN KO!!
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hahaha......i'm happy na nakasaulat ulit ako sa blogspot kong ito....
i'm welcoming myself!!
:)
nakakatuwa naman...kasi akala ko hindi na ulit ako mag-ba-blog dito...
bakit ko nga ba naiisipang mag-blog ulit?? hmmp...hindi ko rin alam eh..
kasi medyo balisa ako nung mga nakaraang araw...hindi ko alam kung bakit...feeling ko may kakaiba sa akin...parang masyado akong iritable...tapos nag-iisip ng WALA (buti nga sana kung may naiisip ako - pero talagang wala eh)...
wish ko tuloy, sana magbakasyon na...para naman medyo makapahinga ako...baka pagod lang 'to!! pero sana nga makapagpahinga ako sa bakasyon...kasi may workshop pa kami ng dance for Pathways..
----------------------
anu ba ang pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon??
Sagot: Marami....as in MARAMI!! kasi naman ang daming long tests at projects....kulang sa time para makapag-review!! hay, buti na lang may inspiration ako....hahaha....pero i hope sana inspiration niya rin ako (ASA!!)
well, masama ba?? "As long as you love, you still have hope" - sabi 'yan sa "Love of Siam"
speaking of "Love of Siam" ------ sobrang adik na ako sa film na ito!! simula ng pinanuod sa akin 'to ni Reyvan, hindi na ako matahimik sa kakaisip...kasi naman sobrang depressing ng ending...parang after watching that wonderful film for 3 hours, biglang ganun na yung ending....well, maganda yung style ng writer in ending his film but ayoko ng "hanging" na ending....in technical terms, "enigmatic" (that's according to my friend, steph). I want a satisfying ending for this film. Kasi naman sobrang ganda nung story line....tsaka sobrang meaningful nung script ng film.... it's deep yet easy to grasp....moreover, sad yung start nung film and you didn't know how will the film end....is it happy or still sad??.... wala akong relieve na naramdaman nung nag-end yung film....parang i'm still hanging with my emotions...parang i'm stuck in the middle of all emotions in the world and i did not know how to react...
pero in the end, it just mean na convincing yung film and it won the attention and sympathy of its viewer (hindi ba halata?? sobrang nadala kaya ako!!)..
i already recommended it to my friends (and is still recommending)...and some of them who did watch the movie are really satisfied...in fact, they too loved the movie....hahaha....and some of them (or almost all of them) ay adik na rin ngayon sa film and sa mga actors...
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suddenly, i remember my childhood dream.....maybe it's because of lots of stress in the school....
kasi nahihirapan na ako sa mga subjects ko and feeling ko tuloy hindi na ako masaya sa ginagawa ko....kasi i feel happy when i had achievement on the things i did....
pero ngayon sobrang down yung pakiramdam ko sa mga ginagawa ko...hindi ako nakakaramdam ng sense of achievement....
so going back....ano nga ba yung childhood dream ko??
simple lang naman...kasi before, hindi ako magaling sa kahit anong subject: Math, Science at kung anu-ano pa!!
so, ang gusto ko na lang maging noon ay maging isang artista...kasi naniniwala naman ako, simula pa pagkabata, na CUTE ako!! bakit hindi ba??
ang gusto ko dati ay maging isang sikat na artista....o kaya naman isang theater artist, either a dancer, model, actor or singer (hahaha...dati kasi nag-join ako ng choir....pero ngayon hindi na halatang nag-choir ako before)...at yung pinakamataas na na gusto kong maging ay isang sikat na writer at manalo ng Nobel Prize Award for Literature (hahaha...sumobra naman ata yung taas)!!
pero syempre, hindi naman papayag yung magulang ko niyan...and even yung grandparents ko.....dahil mas importante ang edukasyon!!
well, nag-enjoy naman akong mag-aral lalo na nung high school ako...kasi mataas yung mga grades ko....pero now?? naku!! feeling ko naaasar na akong mag-aral...kasi parang walang patutunguhan...nung high school kasi hindi ako nasanay na mag-aral para pumasa lang...kasi kahit hindi ako mag-review mataas pa rin yung grades ko... pero ngayon...anung aral man ang gawin ko, parang wala pa ring epekto sa grades ko....(wish ko na lang na may isisipag pa ako)..
naiisip ko lang tuloy, is it better kung nag-artista na lang ako? even wala gaanong "substance", atleast may sense of achievement sila....
hay, i should discern it well....kung hindi......ahhmmmm....
EWAN KO!!
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hahaha......i'm happy na nakasaulat ulit ako sa blogspot kong ito....
i'm welcoming myself!!
:)
Monday, January 28, 2008
After all....
January 25, 2008
Hay...after all the problems I have gone through yesterday, starting from the brain-draining math midterm-test up to the deadlines of paper and reports and the lost of my planner(it contains all of the things that I should do for this whole month including my personal deadlines), fate have still problems to give me this days....I thought I have already struggle much problems but guess what, there are still more this day....
I am arranging all of my things this day because I am thinking that I really have lots of things to do...today, we will be continuing our report in Filipino....It is good that I have aleady finished my part last Wednesday......THen, my next class is Math....I thought, because we have taken our midterms just yesterday, that we won't be having a lesson or maybe we will just have a "how-are-you session"....but then, our teacher is vey much excited to share his knowledge to us...he really loves us much....So, he started the first Section of Chapter 4 of TC7.....of course, what should our reaction be???...Haler!!....Again, my drained brain still got drained....it becomes "drained-er".....but then, my struggles doesn't stop there, there's still one last big problem.....
I will be passing my task 1 paper in english next week....of course, I should have started working now....and I know that.....so, I look for my outline which I already consulted with my professor....however, when I am looking for it, I cannot find my outline....I look wherever it can possibly hide but it is not there......I almost started to cry..... I don't know what to do....so I go to the RSF to open my mail and see if I have a soft copy of it.....I open my folders, inbox, trash and sent items but I still can't find it.....I am already in a bad mood and I know I am near to crying....But I have a hidden talent.....I can comfort myself....I tell myself that I can find it....maybe, I just left it on our house.....I will just look for it when I went back home.....however, on the other side of my brain, it says that I may have left it between the pages of my planner; the planner that I have lost last Wednesday.....and it is possible because I have consulted that paper that same Wednesday......
But, I am still thinking positive.....I typed this blog so that people may know my sufferings and pray for my goodness......Oh! help me ask God where it is.......please.....
PS
the notebook(planner) that I have lost has a brand name "Sbarro" (a reastaurant).....pray that my paper is not there.....hope that I left it on our house....I will know if my paper is in our house later.....huhuhuhu......
Hay...after all the problems I have gone through yesterday, starting from the brain-draining math midterm-test up to the deadlines of paper and reports and the lost of my planner(it contains all of the things that I should do for this whole month including my personal deadlines), fate have still problems to give me this days....I thought I have already struggle much problems but guess what, there are still more this day....
I am arranging all of my things this day because I am thinking that I really have lots of things to do...today, we will be continuing our report in Filipino....It is good that I have aleady finished my part last Wednesday......THen, my next class is Math....I thought, because we have taken our midterms just yesterday, that we won't be having a lesson or maybe we will just have a "how-are-you session"....but then, our teacher is vey much excited to share his knowledge to us...he really loves us much....So, he started the first Section of Chapter 4 of TC7.....of course, what should our reaction be???...Haler!!....Again, my drained brain still got drained....it becomes "drained-er".....but then, my struggles doesn't stop there, there's still one last big problem.....
I will be passing my task 1 paper in english next week....of course, I should have started working now....and I know that.....so, I look for my outline which I already consulted with my professor....however, when I am looking for it, I cannot find my outline....I look wherever it can possibly hide but it is not there......I almost started to cry..... I don't know what to do....so I go to the RSF to open my mail and see if I have a soft copy of it.....I open my folders, inbox, trash and sent items but I still can't find it.....I am already in a bad mood and I know I am near to crying....But I have a hidden talent.....I can comfort myself....I tell myself that I can find it....maybe, I just left it on our house.....I will just look for it when I went back home.....however, on the other side of my brain, it says that I may have left it between the pages of my planner; the planner that I have lost last Wednesday.....and it is possible because I have consulted that paper that same Wednesday......
But, I am still thinking positive.....I typed this blog so that people may know my sufferings and pray for my goodness......Oh! help me ask God where it is.......please.....
PS
the notebook(planner) that I have lost has a brand name "Sbarro" (a reastaurant).....pray that my paper is not there.....hope that I left it on our house....I will know if my paper is in our house later.....huhuhuhu......
Sarcasm
January 24, 2008
I had my midterms in Math21 yesterday in Escaler Hall at around 4:30 in the afternoon 'til 6:30. I don't have any worry about the test because I believe I know everything that I should have known. I also believe that the test is so easy even my blockmate in english told me a day before that the test is really hard according to their teacher....I REALLY don't believe on what he said....And I was right the test is "super-duper-mega-over-wonderlistic-mighty-marvel-ultrapowerblast- extra-hyperactive-expedition-to-the-max-with-wings EASY".....As I see the test, the first few words that my mouth bursted is "Eto na yun?! Eoww....ang DALI naman!!".....I REALLY don't expect that it is sooooooooooo easy!!!!!!!!!.........I thought we had taken up a lot of lessons in the first three chapters of the TC7 of Leithold but then, I didn't use all of the knowledge I learned in Dr. Marcelo's class (not even a half!!) .....Well, in fact, I have finished the test in less than 1 hour and I am pretty sure that they are ALL correct......... (hello?!...who's gonna say that they lack time in answer that very easy, uncomplicated and very comprehensive exam)...Until now, I can't really imagine that Math teachers will be such KIND to give us such EASY test..I know that I will get an A in this test which is the worst case because I am not contented to get an A in this very easy test but rather to get a 100% grade........I know I can because as I have told you, it is so easy......oh, I almost forgot!!! Some of the people who will read this blog also took up the test....am I right?? So, how do you feel about the test?? Am I not correct?? Oh!! Don't be so humble 'cause I am pretty sure that you also felt the same way as I did.....hehehe.....
I had my midterms in Math21 yesterday in Escaler Hall at around 4:30 in the afternoon 'til 6:30. I don't have any worry about the test because I believe I know everything that I should have known. I also believe that the test is so easy even my blockmate in english told me a day before that the test is really hard according to their teacher....I REALLY don't believe on what he said....And I was right the test is "super-duper-mega-over-wonderlistic-mighty-marvel-ultrapowerblast- extra-hyperactive-expedition-to-the-max-with-wings EASY".....As I see the test, the first few words that my mouth bursted is "Eto na yun?! Eoww....ang DALI naman!!".....I REALLY don't expect that it is sooooooooooo easy!!!!!!!!!.........I thought we had taken up a lot of lessons in the first three chapters of the TC7 of Leithold but then, I didn't use all of the knowledge I learned in Dr. Marcelo's class (not even a half!!) .....Well, in fact, I have finished the test in less than 1 hour and I am pretty sure that they are ALL correct......... (hello?!...who's gonna say that they lack time in answer that very easy, uncomplicated and very comprehensive exam)...Until now, I can't really imagine that Math teachers will be such KIND to give us such EASY test..I know that I will get an A in this test which is the worst case because I am not contented to get an A in this very easy test but rather to get a 100% grade........I know I can because as I have told you, it is so easy......oh, I almost forgot!!! Some of the people who will read this blog also took up the test....am I right?? So, how do you feel about the test?? Am I not correct?? Oh!! Don't be so humble 'cause I am pretty sure that you also felt the same way as I did.....hehehe.....
What a Shame!
January 23, 2008
I was riding in a bus going to the Ateneo at around 7:30 in the morning this day. Actually, this is the earliest time I went to school just because I have a consultation on my English paper. I am sleepy when I was in the bus, maybe bacause I am not "immune" on early start of school works. So, because I am afraid to sleep in the bus and then wake up in a place I don't know, I started comforting and waking myself by noticing things around me...the people there who are also sleepy like me, the conductor who do not stop walking (maybe he is just trying not to be sleepy), the students in their uniform (worst than our dress code), and the most bothering thing that I see....a sign printed above the bus's window saying "Keep tickets for INSPICTION"...It is not the first time that I see the sign but I never notice it like I did this day....I really don't know what should my first reaction should be, not because it is too funny or erroneous but because I don't even know if it's spelling is right or wrong....Of course at first I really have a strong feeling that it is wrong and that is why I giggle as I see it.....However, after a second, I pause for a moment and think if it's really wrong or it's only me who find it wrong....So, I doubted myself and think over and over again what the spelling really is.....Until the bus stop in Katipunan, I still don't know if the spelling is "INSPICTION" which is the speling printed on every bus that I see or "INSPECTION" which I doubted if right or wrong....But thanks to boosting technology such as the computer.....Before I went to my english paper consultation, I first went to the "COMPUTER CONSULTATION" for the most bothering thing I saw on the bus.....So I type in the computer....i.....n....s....p....e....c.....t....i...o...n.....and I press (Enter).......then suddenly, no red line appears.....which means that I am correct.....but I am still in doubt.....maybe the spelling and grammar check is off.....so i checked it......but guess what....it's ON!!!!!......then I type the spelling on the bus.....i....n....s....p....i....c....t....i...o....n.....(Enter).....and the red line appear.......Suddenly, I feel the happiness and fulfillment of mysteries unsolved....the two ends of my lips then pulled up (hahahaha!!!!!.....at last...).......However, it is still a shameful thing that I am bothered by the word "Insp(i/e)ction"......what will my English teachers will say when they knew it? I guess they will just laugh and tease me.....but well what should my response be??.....easy....."to err is human, to forgive is divine..."...hehehe... :p......"but if you are not human you might not be like me.....(hahaha)......and so, the next thing happen???.....my life continues...... :p
I was riding in a bus going to the Ateneo at around 7:30 in the morning this day. Actually, this is the earliest time I went to school just because I have a consultation on my English paper. I am sleepy when I was in the bus, maybe bacause I am not "immune" on early start of school works. So, because I am afraid to sleep in the bus and then wake up in a place I don't know, I started comforting and waking myself by noticing things around me...the people there who are also sleepy like me, the conductor who do not stop walking (maybe he is just trying not to be sleepy), the students in their uniform (worst than our dress code), and the most bothering thing that I see....a sign printed above the bus's window saying "Keep tickets for INSPICTION"...It is not the first time that I see the sign but I never notice it like I did this day....I really don't know what should my first reaction should be, not because it is too funny or erroneous but because I don't even know if it's spelling is right or wrong....Of course at first I really have a strong feeling that it is wrong and that is why I giggle as I see it.....However, after a second, I pause for a moment and think if it's really wrong or it's only me who find it wrong....So, I doubted myself and think over and over again what the spelling really is.....Until the bus stop in Katipunan, I still don't know if the spelling is "INSPICTION" which is the speling printed on every bus that I see or "INSPECTION" which I doubted if right or wrong....But thanks to boosting technology such as the computer.....Before I went to my english paper consultation, I first went to the "COMPUTER CONSULTATION" for the most bothering thing I saw on the bus.....So I type in the computer....i.....n....s....p....e....c.....t....i...o...n.....and I press (Enter).......then suddenly, no red line appears.....which means that I am correct.....but I am still in doubt.....maybe the spelling and grammar check is off.....so i checked it......but guess what....it's ON!!!!!......then I type the spelling on the bus.....i....n....s....p....i....c....t....i...o....n.....(Enter).....and the red line appear.......Suddenly, I feel the happiness and fulfillment of mysteries unsolved....the two ends of my lips then pulled up (hahahaha!!!!!.....at last...).......However, it is still a shameful thing that I am bothered by the word "Insp(i/e)ction"......what will my English teachers will say when they knew it? I guess they will just laugh and tease me.....but well what should my response be??.....easy....."to err is human, to forgive is divine..."...hehehe... :p......"but if you are not human you might not be like me.....(hahaha)......and so, the next thing happen???.....my life continues...... :p
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