Out of Ennui (Boredom)

*This is an unedited poem (meaning, without rhyme....by the way, i am not fan of poem with rhymes) i did during our math 122 class....I am a little depress on the result of my first long exam to this subject and that's why I lost my enthusiasm in listening to his lectures....Moreover, I am just being patient before to try listening to his boring and overloading lectures about definitions and theorems of matrices....and now, I break free....the result of the test serves as the catalyst for me to stop my martyrdom...hahaha.....well, I shouldn't hide my boredom in his class, exhaustion, sleepiness, etc.....I won't submit myself to conformity (even though I am an ultimate conformist)....*

*title?? I am not sure!! I am not really good at giving titles.....*

Susubukan kong aliwin ang aking gunita
Gamit ang balintunang kulay ng papel at tinta
Lalayo sa kabagutang dulot ng madla
Sa isang kuwartong puno ng tanikala

Aking gagamutin ang talukap ng aking mata
Na kanina pa bumabagsak sa lalim ng tarangkahan
Patuloy na nilalamon ang buslo ng talinhaga
At tumutulak sa katotohanan patungo sa pangarap

Nais kong patuloy na manindigan sa kamulatang tinatanto
Nang umabot man lamang sa ugong ng simboryong
Gugulantang at gigising sa tulog kong libog
Na tumanga sa kawalang tagos sa nilalayon

Kailan makawawala sa panaginip na ito?
At tumungo sa kamulatang ninanais ng iyo
Sa pagbuka ng bagong liwayway sa kapis na ito
Ang isip na buhay ay patuloy na hungkag at lito

Ako'y nagkukumahog sa pagtakbo't paglayo
Sa layon ng pananatili at paninik-luhod
Dito sa nakaririmarim na pakikipagtalamitam
Ng dunong sa mapanupil na haligi at panulat

Isa itong kalabisan sa hangganan ng pananaw
Lagpas sa katotohanan at rurok ng balintataw
Simula kawalan hanggang kalawakan
'Di tarok ang lalim ng hubong kababawan

*And my Math 122 ends....thanks God!!"

This is me

*hahaha...I love this song...after hearing this on Disney Channel, "Camp Rock" i started singing it over and over.....maybe because I can somehow, but not totally, relate on her situation....that's because I really feel, that I am an introverted kind of person trying to release and express myself....and the theme is cool....I like the lyrics and rhythm....However, the singer sings over-acting.....but nonetheless that didn't make the song less beatiful...*

Lyrics to This Is Me
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me