Ang labo niya...sobrang labo niya..
hindi ko alam...pero basta naaasar ako...
akala ko ba tulad pa rin ng dati...walang magbabago...walang maiilang...walang lalayo...
(sabi niya hindi naman daw....pero iba yung feeling ko....i know that there's a big change....i might not know her a lot but i know how she dealt with me before...and comparing it with how she deals with me now, i can really say na may nagbago....)
pero hindi pala...gaya ng inaasahan ko....eto ngayon!!!
kaya nga ako hesitant nung una na sabihin sa kanya eh...kaya nga as much as possible ayokong malaman niya....hangga't maaari itinatago ko sa kanya..
pero ang kulit ko kasi....bakit ko ba kasi sinabi?? kahit na nalaman kong alam na rin niya before ko pa sabihin, wala pa ring pagkakaiba yun....
mas maganda nga sanang hindi ko na lang sinabi kasi at least walang confirmation...wala siyang proof na "ano" ko nga siya...
what am i expecting ba kasi when I told her about dun?? am i expecting na matutuwa siya?? or if not, na everything will be okay and will go back to their proper places and order??......adik nga ako kung ganun....'coz I know that in every little thing we did, nothing will be the same as before....a lot will change....and despite that, ginawa ko pa rin yun!!!
HAY!! i hope that i can bring back the time when she's clueless with everything....i hope i didn't give her a single hint about it....sana i not contemplating about everything...sana i am not regretting every single step i did....
ano ba kasing dapat kong gawin?? fool myself na HINDI?? we are who we were before...na i view her just like other people.....well, how i wish ganun nga....'coz it's hard to feel this way and be in this situation....but it's not!!
i hope i can distract myself on other things and pretend that everything is alright...and believe in her that nothing has changed....hope that i am a complete fool making myself believe on things i know are not real....
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hope everything will be alright....even i know it might not....
just be hopeful!!
SANA NGA!! i want to go back on how we were before.... i feel comfortable!!
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