Sobrang daming nangyari sa akin last week and sobrang pagod ako...toxic in short!! Sabay-sabay mga long exams kaya rin hindi ako masyadong nakakapag-net and nakakapag-blog...
Wala halos akong tulog for 4 straight days...kasi may exam sa Stat na wala pa akong masyadong alam kaya kailangan kong mag-review from the start...buti na lang nandyan sina Amae para turuan ako....and maganda naman yung naging result kasi pumasa ako...tapos may exam din ako ng Math 195 na wala talaga akong alam kahit ano...kahit nagreview na ako, wala pa rin akong alam...kaya nung nagtest ako, nakatulala lang ako. Buti na lang at may proving ng Intermediate Value Theorem na kabisado ko from Cherryl's notes...hahaha..
But after Friday, nagparty-party lang kami....nagmall kami nila Amae and naglaro sa Time Zone Gateway para naman ma-relax kami after the draining long tests and para na rin i-treat yung sarili namin since we survived our hell week...Then, we went to Shawn's house to really party!!
May inuman and nagdala si Amae ng Gin and Vodka....well, fun yung party but it will be better kung a lot of people came...we had twisters, then rockband, etc...but the most memorable game for me is the card game...
We played Lucky Nine and those who will lose will have a consequence....The most common consequence is body shot...hahahaha...Nung una, hindi ako natatalo and I am really confident na never will I be...(Oh, I forgot to tell you, Kim is also there...kaya I was happier that day)...pero kinakabahan ako not for myself but for Kim. Kasi kapag nataya siya, then kailangan niyang mag-body shot with other person...eh, paano kung guy yung partner niya?? So, I don't want her na mataya...
However, sa isang round ng game, bigla siyang nagreact which signals na nataya siya...then, kinabahan ako...baka kasi guy yung mataya...then, inisip ko, sana ako na lang (naughty? yes of course...pero after kong maisip yun, natawa na lang ako and i feel guilty about it)...then, when i looked into my cards, 20 yung sum ng card ko which means...zero ako...however, i can still get a card....at first, i joke Cherryl na i won't get another card para talo na ako (pero of course that's a joke kasi masyado namang halata yun...kahit na yun yung best way to protect her from other guys, i have to pick another card taking into consideration that other people, which maybe a guy, can also lose and have a body shot with KC....this will really broke my heart)...Then, when i picked a card, it is another 10 and my total score will stil be zero....
At that moment, I don't know what to feel...masaya ako kasi hindi other people yung magko-consequence with her....and aaminin ko na, masaya ako kasi gagawin ko yung consequence with her; it's once in a lifetime...pero na-gi-guilty ako kasi pwede namang girl na lang yung gumawa ng consequence with her para walang malice...pero, of course, we have to do the consequence...she has to lick my chest that has salt and drink water with ketchup ('coz she don't drink alcohol)...At that moment, i feel like everything around me stop and there's only the two of us....I feel like the whole room is in fire, though it is air-conditioned, since I am sweating a lot (I think I'm sweating)...Then, when she licked me, I felt the hotness of her tongue touching my cold body which gives me a great chill...(Just a secret: I don't wash my chest...and i don't really know why...:D)
But it does not end with that! After we did our consequence, we lose again...HIndi ko yun sinadya..promise...it's just fate!! hahaha....pero sobrang nakakatakot yung consequence bacause ako naman yung mag-li-lick...Ang hirap kasi I have to lick her on the chest...well, the part of chest near the neck (not too low)...I don't know what to feel...I am happy but not quite...Of course, it is hard for a guy to do that...I sweat more than before and my whole body is tensed...Then, my friends told me that they should see my tongue as it go through her body...meaning, i have to stick it out longer...I was really hesitant but they are persistent...So, just to end the show, I closed my eyes then stick out my tongue and lick her chest as slow as i can....and of course, drink...(which turns out sensual 'coz imagine, i am licking her with closed eyes...hahaha)
Then, the night has to end because we still have a class the next day (Finance)...I thought the night will end fun...But just before I got home, na-bad-trip ako...Nagselos na naman ako....kasi sobrang close niya kay Nico...I know they have past (kasi may gusto si Nico sa kanya before though sinabi ni KC kay Nico na she doesn't like him)....And worse, wala na si Nico and Dawn which I speculate dahil kay KC (well, I'm not sure pero I am just guessing)....I know wala naman akong rights para magselos...Bakit kami ba?? Pero hindi ko naman kasi mapigilan yung sarili kong magselos eh....Kung kaya ko lang, bakit hindi?? Adik lang talaga ako na I am demanding na sa akin lang siya maging sweet kahit hindi naman kami...I am fencing her away from other guys, though I know she doesn't want me to do it...Sino ba ako? baka nga hindi pa ako umabot sa pagiging "close friend niya" eh...
But I know I can move on...I will just go with the flow...I will hold on to my feeling as long as I can...I know it will go...I will soon be over her...There are lots of people out there and I hope someone will be there for me....Hope someone, out there, will love me and care for me...Hope she will come soon...
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