Why am I becoming more EMO?!

Why is life so ironic? That the person who makes you feel so happy is also the same person who makes you feel so down, sad, and depress...

The happiness I feel is just a total bliss...I am happy in a second and with a snap of a finger, I'm back in reality...a sad reality...I hate myself loving other people...I hate myself when I miss people...I hate myself when I care for others....but what can I do? It's me...though I am often becoming sad when I am doing these things, I still do it 'cause I think it's good..

I hate being attached to people...I hope I am just a robot who did his job without any emotional attachment....At least, in this case, I won't be hurt when someone is gone or I won't be paranoid about a friend leaving me...I know I am happy with this attachment, but happiness also means pain...It comes in pair, as always....

I don't want to be close to anybody...because i know someday someone's gonna leave....and i can't accept that fact...I know I'm becoming possessive or egoistic or whatsoever, but it's hard to accept that fact...Sometimes I am asking why people just come and go, and we can't do anything about it??...that there's no such thing as forever and though people promise for it, their forever means ASAP!! In an instant, you will just notice they are gone as soon as they promise to stay....But I think that's life....A continuous process of fluctuating emotions, until you learn how to control your own feelings and be mature enough to stand up and be strong...People come and go but they leave a mark in you...though the time of parting ways come, you will always be a part of the other...

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Jealousy is not healthy 'cause it makes me sick! It really does...